The stress of money and bills. When will I get it? When will I be like everybody else and have it together? I don’t understand life, growing up, being responsible, the daily grind, any of it. I don’t understand any of it. And I get so frustrated. I get so stressed. And I’ve been so lost. This whole time. And it’s only getting worse. And I pray about it, and I cry. And I read my Bible looking for comfort in the Scriptures. And my heart will be calm until I get a passing thought where I feel like I’m actually failing. And I don’t know what to do. When will I get it? I’ve been told He only speaks to your heart. And Satan is the one who throws negative thoughts your way to try and break you down. That, he cannot talk to your heart. But this very second….My heart is quiet. And my mind is raging. And the devil and God are raging inside me and I am seriously confused.
Do I stay at my job? Stressed and anxious for barely minimum wage? Or do I quit, without a job lined up and barely enough money to pay bills for next month to spend all my time job hunting? I so hate decisions and consequences. What do I do? What do grown adults who get it do?